Steve Capelin is a writer, based in Brisbane Australia. His most recent publication, Paradiso A Novel, a work of historical fiction, tells the story of his Italian ancestors who arrived in Australia in 1881 after an ill-fated attempt to build a utopian colony in the jungles of New Guinea. This blog also contains stories about family, travel, quirky moments in life and refections on the world and its absurdities.
Tuesday, 14 April 2015
Snout
At Morningside
where we got eaten by mosquitoes every summer
where the sun filled the front room with light
and warmed the day bed through winter
my mother's domain was at the back of the house.
The kitchen was the cold room
warmed by my mother's old fashioned baking
scones for visitors
sponge cakes for birthdays
and the Sunday roast when Uncle Nat would visit.
My father cooked his favourites from time to time
kidneys sauteed in cream and a dash of whiskey
liver cooked until it had the texture of leather
tripe cooked in milk
and a pig's head in a pot.
My father was a smallgoods rep
with a van full of cured meats
sides of beef
lamb carcasses ready for the butcher's knife
and occasionally a pig's head.
On some Saturdays
the house would be filled with a sweet smell
a pig's head bubbling for hours on the stove
in the largest pot in the kitchen
only the pig's pink snout visible above the broth
I didn't feel sad for the pig
this was a pig's fate, to feed a family
he (I assumed all food animals to be boys)
looked quite at home in that aluminium pot surrounded
by bay leaves, carrots, onions, cloves, coriander seeds and pepper.
Mum was not a big fan
but supported my fathers obsession
she helped strip the head of flesh (including the tongue)
placed the mix in rectangular metal trays
and placed two heavy irons on top.
Terrines and hand-made brawn
remind me of my father and his food obsessions
they make me think he never lost his Italian roots
and his love of peasant food
though, unlike his father, he never made salami.
I wonder
perhaps the brawn connection was through his Irish mother.
(c) Steve Capelin 2015
Sunday, 16 December 2012
Summer backyard
The heat drips off me like a waterfall.
My keyboard sweats.
The house behaves like a sauna,
It captures the sun
Converting it to a steam bath.
Memories of Vanuatu.
It's ginger lined streets
It's verdant backyards
It's cool sea breezes
tease me.
I swelter in the presence of
ginger ginger ginger
Summer is a two timing season
It promises clear skies
Beach scenes.
Productive gardens
Never ending days of light.
Delivers a human hell
Burns us up
Ignoring our protestations of innocence
Causes us to wish away
Our precious days.
Love and hate
Beauty and beastliness
Ginger tomatoes poinciana.
Hot colours
Cool nights
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
Mandala - via Warwick Queensland
At Mandala
by the back door of the former school house
chooks hide in a tiny pen
safe from predator and wild dog
safe in the knowing that Gabrielle
and foxy Millie are a match for any real fox
who might nightly visit and sniff a meal
well fed on scraps and grain
In daylight they safely roam
as chooks in yards are wont
and in company of humans
who also wander beyond
along creeks which fill and flow
and die and slowly empty of
ducks and native fish and murmurings
until November rains flush another dry season away.
Across the way
A red backed wallaby
colour picked from the palette of rust in the nearby shed
sits and sits as I stand and stare
my camera waiting patiently at maximum aperture
at a shooting speed set for the setting sun
and refuses to look at me
declines to turn
defiantly pretends not to notice me
while all his brothers and sisters flee
bouncing through fields of pale grass
Wednesday, 23 May 2012
Madness - Eve Langley
Margie Brown-AshI saw a show last night in Brisbane which was an account of the life of Eve Langley. It was essentially a one woman show with actor/therapist Margie Brown-Ash in that role. It was confronting. I knew little about Eve Langley but suffice it to say she had a troubled and sometime brilliant life. Mother, schizophrenic, 7 years in a mental institution, a writer obsessed with Oscar Wilde and convinced of her own destiny - she went as far as changing her name by deed poll to Oscar Wilde in 1954.
Eve Maria Langley was born Ethel Jane Langley in Forbes, New South
Wales, Australia, on 1 September 1904, to Arthur Alexander Langley, a
carpenter, and his wife, Myra Davidson. She left school at 14 and worked
in various jobs before following her mother and younger sister Lilian
May (known as June) to Paekakariki, New Zealand, in 1932. She worked as a
journalist, a travelling bookseller, and then a gardener and housemaid
at a hostel in Wanganui. Around 1934 she moved to Carterton, where she
met Luigi Rinaldi, a car salesman. In 1935 at Auckland she had his child
(who died shortly after birth). Afterwards she met an art student,
Hilary Roy Clark, whom she married at the Registrar’s Office, Auckland,
on 6 January 1937. Although 32, she gave her age as 28; he was 22. Five years and three children later he had his wife committed to a mental institution.She was released from the Institution in 1949, divorcing her husband in 1952. In 1956 she returned to Australia, travelled widely overseas and died in 1974 in a shack in the Katoomba bush in the Blue Mountains. She had become increasingly eccentric, wearing 'mannish clothes' and a white topi and always wore a knife in her belt. She died alone at home but her body was not found until about 3 weeks after her death. She was 70. A life of torment and talent ending so alone. How does that happen?Margie Brown-Ash's portrayal of Eve was a harrowing 70 minutes, though not nearly as harrowing as Eve's reality.. I felt for her and also perhaps even more so for her young children.
This is one of her pieces. I've never read any of her work but I love this piece - so full of life and pain and yet a deceptively simple story beautifully written.
In a white gully among fungus red
Where serpent logs lay hissing at the air,
I found a kangaroo. Tall dewy,dead,
So like a woman, she lay silent there.
Her ivory hands, black-nailed, crossed on her breastHer skin of sun and moon hues, fallen cold
her brown eyes lay like rivers come to rest
And death had made her black mouth harsh and old
Beside her in the ashes I sat deep
And mourned for her, but had no native song
To flatter death, while down the ploughlands steep
Dark young Camelli whistled loud and long,
'Love, liberty and Italy are all.'
Broad golden was his breast against the sun
I saw his wattle whip rise high and fall
Across the slim mare's flanks, and one by one
She drew the furrows after her as he
Flapped like a gull behind her, climbing high
Chanting his oaths and lashing soundingly,
While from the mare came once a blowing sigh.
The dew upon the kangaroo's white side
Had melted. Time was whirling high around,
Like the thin woomera, and from heaven wide
He, the bull-roarer, made continuous sound
Incarnate lay my country by my hand:
Her long hot days, bushfires, and speaking rains
Her mornings of opal and the copper band
Of smoke around the sunlight on the plains.
Globed in fire-bodies the meat- ants ran
to taste her flesh and linked us as we lay,
Forever Australian, listening to a man
From careless Italy, swearing at our day.
When golden-lipped, the eagle-hawks came down
Hissing and whistling to eat of lovely her
And the blowflies with their shields of purple brown
Plied hatching to and fro across her fur,
I burnt her with the logs, and stood all day
Among the ashes, pressing home the flame
Till woman, logs and dreams were scorched away
And native with the night, that land from whence they came.
Sunday, 12 February 2012
New Zealand - a sheep's world view
I'm sharing this view with twelve thousand sheep.
I wonder what they make of it?
Do they look up?
Do they see the blanket of blue
which slides down from the snow free fields of Mt Hutt
to slump on the plains of Canterbury?
They laze and sleep and eat and eat
a dot painting of eating machines
increasing their required body weight each day
oblivious to the beauty of their penned lives.
I see a patchwork of fields running amok,
ordered by fencelines and trodden pathways
racing to a horizon of trees ambling beside a wayward creek
and meeting the sky at the appointed place at the appointed time.
I wonder what the sheep see?
Saturday, 14 January 2012
Franz Josef Glacier
Glacier
Falling from a precipitous sky
Hurtling headlong towards a fragile me
Frothing tumbling popping splashing
A milkshake poured from an almighty tumbler
Flowing nowhere
Destructive urge suspended
In crystalline blue
Awaiting another ice age.
(c) Steve Capelin
Blue ice (left), ice tunnel (right)
Fox Glacier - neighbour to Frans Josef
Yearning
I'm sitting on the side of my bed at 4 in the afternoon at the Mt Cook YHA looking in the direction of MT Cook (New Zealand's highest peak).
It's raining cool January rain and the mountain is hiding. A Korean man I spoke to last night said as he stood at the door of the Hostel "I just want to see her". He had such yearning in his voice.
He left this morning unsatisfied.
Unrequited
South Korean gentleman
Peers into the mist
A vigil for his lost love
Sunday, 8 January 2012
Kaikoura
Monday, 19 December 2011
Cryptic Christmas
I've aged only one year
but my children's combined tally
creeps closer to my maturing years.
I've written a small mountain of words
but the memoir in me
grows faster than I can capture it.
I've been a teacher in a Pacific idyll
but I've learnt more
than I've imparted.
I've immersed myself
in the history of my community
only to discover that I know very little.
I've lived my 37th year
in a partnership both
baffling and satisfying.
I've read a lot
becoming a better reader,
more discerning and insightful.
I've spent more time alone
and found good company within,
and out and about.
I haven't been paid
but I have worked hard
hoping the tax man is losing interest.
There were things lost -
a job, or two; a son leaves home
But I have no memory of funerals.
I have valued relationships and relatives
I have valued time and also tide
I am again a fortunate man.
Have a great holiday season everyone.
See you in 2012.
steve aka 'little hat'
Wednesday, 9 November 2011
Suburban surprises

Went for a drive at lunchtime today to scout some of the elements I'm writing about for the forthcoming 'Walkers Guide to West End'. I needed to check out a couple of buildings built in the 30s as the area's first apartment buildings. One, Carmel Court, is a lovely simple Art Deco place on Vulture Street (I know a little more about Art Deco as a result of researching this project - more about the progress of the project another time).
I took a detour into a dead end street and drove to the end and as always it was the human presence which caught my eye rather than the houses. Buildings have stories and in my view that's what makes them interesting - even the story about why a designer might have chosen to build a modernist Art Deco building in the middle of a suburb of timber colonials. But I digress.
I saw
a man
under a floppy hat
wearing swim trunks
in a green backyard
sitting on a yoga mat
cross legged
straight backed
baking under the burning Brisbane sun
meditating i thought
until he reached out
to touch
the computer screen
resting on the grass
before him.
Photo courtesy of Cara and Brisbane Daily Photo blog.
Monday, 5 September 2011
Driving 1953
Parking was never dad's strong point.he saw cars as toys
rides to enjoy
a dodgem car bust up derby
a metal missile pointing us
home from a newly visited destination
or creeping along darkened streets
after emptying a keg of beer
at a birthday party
guided by gutters on either side
each bump left or right
a reminder to an inebriated brain
to make a correction
while we clung
white knuckled to the upholstery
screaming advice and
crying out in terror
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Thursday, 18 August 2011
Coloured
Dark stories of scarlet lives and
secret liasons driven
by unfulfilled dreams
and blind self deception
white lies and blackened reputations
told by the ambitious
for the expedient
without a care for consequence
no interest in the gray
of circumstance
or the glare of reality
illuminated by the reversing lights of history
Enamel hides blemishes and
lies that lay beneath
the manicured surfaces
of shining private lives
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Tuesday, 9 August 2011
Fluorescent - Magpie 77
I touched your hand
you smiled and turned your head
your eyes drove straight through me
moths circled the verandah light.
From the street we must have looked like lovers
from where I sat I was merely hoping
your skin glowed in the luminous light
heat poured in from the recently disappeared day
Inside the house your mother called your name
I knew you wanted more than conversation
you leant back on the ledge beside me
a car horn sounded in the street
You flicked your hair, I avoided your gaze
I see your shoes are blue
I hold my breath you turn and tilt your head
the fluorescent light flickers
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Tuesday, 22 March 2011
My Mona Lisa - Magpie 59
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Monday, 21 February 2011
Backyard Beauty
Enough of rain and water and the pain and the thrill and chaos of it all. Today the sun is shining and it’s hot and humid. Sticky.
I’ve just come home from a Sunday afternoon drink with my son at Archive, the new beer café.bar in West End to find this woman asleep in my backyard.
She’s like some beached goddess. Pale skin, blonde hair, body poured over a blue mattress on deep green grass. It’s my wife. She’s in touch with the elements. She’s followed the cat and camped beside him in the coolest spot in the yard – in the shade cast by the house as the afternoon sun scorches its way across the sky towards sunset.
I grab my camera. As I do I’m having this strange conversation in my head asking me what is it about this scene that is so compelling. Why have I raced for my Panasonic? What is it about certain scenes, moments, experiences that demand that they be captured.
Can a frozen image ever capture what I see – the light, the surroundings, my relationship with the moment. The things that are invisible to the camera – the warmth of the timber house behind me, my son’s presence, the fact that this is an unusual choice for Andrea, my personal sense of beauty. All these things, all my senses are engaged and everything tells me that it will not be possible to do justice to this moment. And yet I cannot resist the urge to try to capture all this with one hasty click.
Backyard Beauty
I remember a young blonde
girl in a short skirt came
visit me in my alone life among
friends in a far away city.
amazing that on a blonde
day in the 70s
she arrived like an angel, kissed
me and changed my life
she's there again in
my blonde backyard on
another blonde day
escaping the heat of
the day burning with
the heat of my gaze.
Does lightning strike twice
is the sunlight blinding me
can this still live on beyond
the first glance and
is that not transcendant
beauty when the light
never fades and the gaze
is constantly re-engaged.
(C) Steve Capelin 2011
Wednesday, 26 January 2011
Magpie Tales 50 Where to from here.

Signs of our times
Mere mortals stand bewitched
before messages from the gods
directing us to new pathways
beyond our comprehension
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Thursday, 20 January 2011
Underground Angel
(Scroll down two entries for Magpie 49)
Angel
A shaft of sunlight luminous and beatific
Streams from the heavens through a concrete skylight
Illuminating a dark underground cavern.
A scene from a medieval Christian painting
Mary at the foot of the cross
Christ’s ascension into heaven .
A muscled young man
Tattoo of a dragon on one shoulder
A floral tribute to a former lover on the other
Framed by a blue navvy’s singlet
Stretched across his glowing chest.
He is bent over a throbbing pump
Diesel fumes spewing into the dark basement.
Thighs painted with river mud
A living David
A tribute to Michelangelo.
He works unaware of his holy status
Intent only on his task.
Muck out this putrid mess before sundown.
It’s a scene watched in silence
By a small group of worshippers
Women mainly, entranced by this heavenly angel
A gift from god on this miserable day
In the midst of this devastating flood.
His straining back his rippling arms
Wrestle his equipment into its final spot
And he delivers on his promise.
Only then does he look up
To see the shy smiles
of a greek chorus of mothers and daughters
as the suns sinks
and the halo remains forever.
Friday, 17 December 2010
Magpie 45 - When the chips are down

Mary's off to the casino
she's looking to crack the jackpot,
sick of living in a stable,
fed up with this baby being born again every year,
she wants to move on.
She's an icon in stained glass
in every catherdal on the planet.
But does she benefit?
Does she get the royalties?
Then along comes the big break,
some artist gives her a red casino chip for a halo,
must be worth something.
It's a sign from ..............
she pauses
then sees that the little one has a deck of cards attached to his head
another sign.
This time she's not asking.
The temple of money is close by
and she's making a B-line for it.
She knows how luck works.
She was picked from millions of others
Lucky? Unlucky?
It's a don't ask questions world.
A don't look a gift ass in the mouth
She doesn't hesitate.
The little fella is only young
but he's showing a lot of promise.
He has a gift for numbers.
It's the roulette table she 's got in mind.
There's a concierge at the door.
Sorry luv, no sandals in the gaming room
and no children.
She's been brought up to be humble
but this is really getting up her nose.
Don't you know who I am
she challenges him.
Sorry luv
I don't care if you're the mother of god
I gotta follow the rules.
I didn't make em.
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Thursday, 16 December 2010
Vanuatu - Night of the Dog
This piece should be accompanied by a soundtrack. In fact i have one. Such was the night I am about to describe that at one point, about 2am, I decided to get my voice recorder from my bag and make a tape of the wondrous cacophony which made sleep impossible. If anyone can advise me how to convert cassette tape to audio file and then load it to this blog I could give you a taste. Sadly this is way beyond my technical skills.
Night of the Dog
A Cessna light aircraft engine
whirrs in the corner blasting
cool air across restless bodies
in this small Vanuatu room.
Nurofen dreams of
a slipped disc disaster
gnaw at my brain.
Malaria tablets
rattle on the side-board
warning off blood engorged messerschmits.
A couple of cats
yowling and growling
beneath my window
sing their excruciating love song
tearing my sleep to shreds.
A dog yaps
yip, wiff, yip-yip
in rhythms no orchestra would recognize
yap yap in my head
in my room, under my bed.
haranguing the full moon
with his lament.
Dog cat cessna backpain
rain drums on the tin roof
clattering
spelling out staccato messages
tick tap drip throp-op.
Wind thrashes palm fronds.
The tarpaulin tied to the verandah rail
snaps back and forth
in time with my nurofen nightmare.
The dog barks and barks
through the full nurofen cycle
the Cessna engine buzzes
the air moves
the rain drips
the cats meow themselves to sleep
the palms rustle
my pain subsides
at the sun’s rise and
I understand why dogs
die in countries far away -
ingredients in secret recipes
guaranteed to satisfy
even the most ardent lovers of dog(s).
Sunday, 7 November 2010
Chooks - Magpie 39

A headless chook runs around the back yard of my childhod home.
A friend publishes a knitting book which features a tea cosy in the form of a chook.
An urban myth about a headless chook living for six months turns out to be true.
People under pressure run around like headless chooks making choices they might regret.
Every year my father bought a chicken or duck in November
and gave it the run of the back yard for two months.
Life was good, plenty of feed and no inkling of what was to come.
I can still conjure up the smell of those plucked feathers.
A headless corpse dunked into the boiling water in the downstairs copper,
then me up to my elbows in a pile of feathers and down.
Christmas dinner tasted all the better knowing it was home grown.
Loani Prior is the international queen of the tea cosies.
having two runaway best selling books of patterns
based on the simple idea that tea cosies can be fun
and that knitting and craft is BACK.
Women flock to her workshops to sit at her feet and knit
Chooky tea cosies.

I'm watching TV.
One of my favourite eccentrics, Stephen Fry, is hosting a wacky show called QI.
It's a play on words - QI IQ.
He's infuriatingly bright and his panellists set out to subvert his intellect
by answering his questions as wrongly as possible.
He asks a question about Mike the Headless Chook.
No one has any idea what he's talking aboutbut this Colorado freak (the chook that is)
has achieved international stardom.
Even if the whole thing turns out to be a fabrication.
I am watching quite intelligent people make unintelligent decisions.
They are under pressure to solve unsolvable problems.
The old 'do more with less' edict from an organisation in meltdown.
They seek to solve the irresolvable by 'making decisions'.
Even a chook will tell you that making decisions
when your head is on the chopping block
can be fraught with problems.
Chooks without heads don't seem to think straight.
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